Conflicted

April 25th, 2013

Well he did it! J finally made me cry.  Actually it felt REALLY good to do that.  What had happened was that J had an English assignment that is due tomorrow (Friday, April 26th) and he was looking up a word in the dictionary.  I had walked to the front from my room and saw that he was STILL looking up the word in the dictionary.  I reached for it to help him out (actually I grabbed for it) and he pulled the book from me and he broke my thumb nail way below the line where my flesh is and it hurt so bad I grabbed my thumb and it hurt like an SOB!!! So I walked to the bathroom and he of course he followed me but I told him to get away from me.  Of course I didn't talk to J for awhile.  Of course he said sorry.  Not that I believed him.

I haven't decided  whether to homeschool him or send him to school.  IDK, what to do.  I'm so conflicted on what to do.  For one, I'm afraid on what the family would say.  My question is, should I care what the family thinks or says when it comes to J's education? I mean his education is more important than what the family thinks or says. The other thing is J's attitude, anger and argument.  The next thing is the assignments I'm going to assigning him.  I mean HE TAKES F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!! I mean it!! OMG!! I had to take over tonight on an assignment that he was doing for 4 days b/c it took him F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!!!

Homeschooling takes so much out of me each day.  I mean there are good days but the bad days are out weighing the good days. I wish it was the other way around.  Then I guess I wouldn't have to worry about what other people are thinking or saying.