My Journey

March 2, 2013, Saturday

As I label this particular blog today, "My Journey" I have to ask myself, "what journey am I on?" I have a couple of journeys that I'm on.  For one, homeschooling mom.  I'm just trying to figure out this homeschool stuff and IDK if it's working or not.  J constantly wants me to stay home so I could homeschool him till he's out of school.  Not sure how to take that one.  I am constantly not wanting to but then again it would be good for him to be homeschooled.  I'm constantly at a tugging of "what's right" and "what do I want." What's even MORE difficult is when the family isn't behind you on what your decisions are.  All I'm getting is "JUST PUT HIM IN REGULAR SCHOOL AND BE DONE WITH IT." It's funny that I don't get any pep talks saying, "you know you could do this.  You've been doing it for a couple of years now and you survived.  You can do it."

March 6, 2013, Wedensday

Oh what a lovely day! NOT! So it started out pretty good until Jeremiah came out of his room and was doing his stretching.  I decided to monitor his stretching routine and was counting out each movement.  I was at a number that was not what he was supposed to b/c he finished before I was counting even to 30! I'm like what number was that that you stopped that excerise? he said 30 what? seconds, hold? he's IDK!!! What! What do you mean IDK? You're supposed to know.  I told him to get the paper out and see how long you're supposed to be doing the excerises.  IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE 60 SECONDS!!! Well, it's too long!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! My thought was, if you held it that long where would you be today if you kept it up? Then my next thought was, HOW LAZY CAN SOMEONE GET! Then it went down hill from there.  So now he's doing his work on his own today.  Am I wrong to get angry? I mean he was going to start his day w/o his pills!!! NO FREAKIN' WAY!!! Then he ran/walked over to the kitchen and took his pills and then ran back and kicked the dry erase board and he thought that was funny.  Then he drank his water and spilled some water on the carpet!!! Of course he didn't blame himself for spilling or kicking the board.  They spilled themselves and the board tripped him.  WTH!!! He's such an asshole!!! UGH!!!  Today we were going to start a new lesson on a book called Mik-Shrok.  It would have been great!!!! Of course his attitude got in the way AGAIN and now he's on his own.